things have been looking towards the lighter side of gray............... am quite happy mashAllah... infact just became happy last night all of a sudden.... I dont know why this feeling came over me.... Well after thirty years of spending my life with myself I have come to know the reason why emotions catch me off the balance.... If someone, that for me is very close to me, becomes happy or sad then it rubs off on me as well... Call it a psychic connection or may be am just a black hole for things to fly into....

Well i am happy coz someone really close to me must be real happy. . . Way to go happy "not-stranger" thank you for bringing a smile to my face and making my hear flutter like a canary bird........ I do love you dear "not-stranger" wherever you are whoever you are; because my heart really needed this burst of happiness.. It just could not take any more of the dark shades of gray.......

Just like that

I am back... nothing to write.. its late in the afternoon.. too many things on my mind..... Its thursday today.... life will be good inshAllah,... but then again there is despair that what will happen..

I am the kind of person that preaches optimism and tells people not to be worried about things that are not in your control but , hey, I just realized that to an individual things always seem to be in their control.... they never realize that things are not in their control.... Same thing is happening to me... I feel like the center of the universe in a negative way ...

anyway bye bye and trust me i am not a a dark person .. I am just gray :)

So the first one....

I just had to write something. Ok first thing is first.... At this place i will just keep writting ... I give a damn about spellings and i dont care what people think of my grammar. I JUST NEED TO WRITE. ,,,,............. and you know what i need to write? well ........... hmmmmmmm

I donot know my self but hey something or the other will keep coming here..

For now i just am feeling so so so i dont know what to say just that i am not finding time for anything or anyone.... and the funny part is that if i want i can find time but i just do not want to... well is that making any sense at all ??? no ... so welcome to gray creations.... they do not have to make any sense and then again, for some, all the sense in the world

I just miss everything and then again nothing at all its the inner vs the outer....... the interior vs the exterior..... Keep following me and re discover your own self