Sun Shining White

Sometimes happiness comes in little bits. Some here.. some there... but once in a while there is a Tsunami of happiness which picks you up and carries you inland for miles. Then it leaves u for the tornado of Joy to pick you up and swirl your around and throw you deep in the sea of bright smiles. In times like these I just let my self flow.. the gray aura glowing with.... grayness of course but what an aura it is. I can not find words to explain this feeling of happiness and joy.. . . .all I can say is that The Creator had written in our fate that such times will come and there will only be a single source for it.... A single source so bright that it will burn your essence to ashes of gray and then will have you reborn again and again just to have you burn again in your own aura of happiness. That is how I have felt and that is how I am sure you will feel.... Just like a Phoenix being born again and again and again.... to be better than before each time around.... All of this from a single source....... Oh how joy comes from the ashes of sadness... Oh how i miss my wings so so so very much.............. Fly into the gray sky to meet with the source of joy .. to encapsulate it in my gray aura and then to become one........

Shining

i wonder why i wrote shining as the topic... No clue as usual :)
Why do we create a world for ourselve where we find happines, sadness or in my case inspiration or answers to lots of questions that I have...... answers to things that are close to reality in my own world?
there I was crying out loud of farness or being faraway. Cursing all things left right and above...... thinking about why soul mates usually end up being faraway and i found the answer.... in something musical something from fiction.... It goes like....
Farness is also nessecary..... coz helplessness is also very stuborn . . . .
Get it?
but you know what i still wish i can sweep my world in my wings .......
Now answer me this ...why did i name this post Shining? I aint no stephen king :)

so so faraway

My heart is not letting me .. its just not letting me..... ask me what why where.. I dont know but the heart is not letting me.. its just not....

What do i do? Oh how ... how can i just fly... How can i be there.... How do i try.. do i even try?

My heart is not letting me... when I see everything it seems and looks like rain cloud thunder .... i love everything about them ... but my heart is not letting me..... oh what can i do what what what?

bloody chains.. how do i break them how can i be there? i try i try what i can, with these chains on... but i am so helpless and so are you... i am so so sooooooo faraway and this means so are you? ohhhh how will we ever travel these long roads.... i want to fly to ..... fly to ... fly to... but how can i ......

My heart is not letting me .... its not letting me ... its not letting me accept the reality that i am so faraway and chained... its not letting me accept it... I wish i can just sweep my world in my wings and make everything ok....

to cheer or not to

its a cruel world or is it? Perception of humans is very very limited... is it a fact. I think it is. But we do not realize it. Not at all. If we did, we would have been so content and that is soooooo not the case. Then again its good that all the humanity is not content otherwise we would have been zombies or robots. Nothing to be cheerful about because there would have been nothing to be sad about. So should we cheer or not? Are you getting my drift? Do you think you understand what I mean by cheer here. Cheer is not nice so lets not cheer. Well lets not cheer in this way!!

You know the hardest part in the world is to feel the pain of others but to some that comes so very easily and it aches...... it aches so very much... so much that one forgets their own being they act totally out of their character... for some this act is being miserable to others the act is so that "true" cheers are spread. Now that is hard again so so so hard. How can one be cheerful when you are aching. The answer is simple.... one can be cheerful to end the ache. .. . ending the ache means trying to end the pain of others.......

Its simple ... isnt it... well the fact of the matter is that perception of the world is not black and white its gray . and gray is good.