Well I want to write something but who is there to understand.. well I know someone who does and always will... there is someone always out there who does... but then why do we feel lonely? ok first let me ask what is loneliness. . . . .. . is it a feeling or is it your environment... logically speaking its when there is no one around . . . there is not a living being around you...... emotionally speaking loneliness is a feeling , . . when you want to discuss something so much with someone but that someone is not there?!?!!!! right? it might be the case that the entire world is revolving around you and you are still lonely.. . that is how it is in the world where everything seems gray....
its hard....... its very very very hard to fight this feeling of calmness ..... this feeling of calmness so ugly that you want to tear it away...... this feeling of calmness known as loneliness ... did i say it was hard well make it double hard ... but i fought ,... i fought and kept fighting and it was over... it was all over ... I won.... yes i did and no questions about it but........ .did i tell you it was hard...... ? for so much long that i dont even remember i wanted to share the thorn inside me with someone... Not you but with someone..... someone that I can approach and i can say "listen dude i am an idiot ... i had the chance of writing my own destiny.... i held the blank papers of fate in my hand.... i held the pen of chance in my hand..... i dipped the pen in the ink of happiness and ... i ..... i .... i just blew it all away ... i burnt the papers .... i broke the nib .... i emptied the ink and dude I want to cry."................ there was no one and that is what is called loneliness..........and did i mention it was hard....................... DAMN it was hard.... I was alone .... I was..... and i kept fighting........But I am not at present........... Lucky are the ones who are alive and are "not calm" coz trust me its hard... so very very hard in the world that i painted gray for so long.... and now I am in Love with gray...........
Did you understand my definition.... my dictionary .............. MY DEFINEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
